It ain't Sophie's Choice. Yet I feel such dread about picking up the phone and calling the boss-man and boss-lady about returning to work. OR not. Or part-time? Or falling off a canyon somewhere out west. Whatever. The point is - I feel like any decision I (or the couple called "we")makes is the wrong one.
Just when my low-key crappy career might starting looking good- I was just emailed to speak at at a conference in Chicago (psssst I hate public speaking). But. Whatever you get the point.
I could melt when one of the babies looks at me and smiles. And I wonder- is our nanny (not that we actually have one)going to pay attention to them? Is she going to give a shit that mairin loves that blue puppy in a box thingy?? Or that our son loves to be sung to....like bad crappy songs?? Will she care? Will she drop one of them?
Sooooo just while M and are are discussing, debating, stressing about what to do- we spot this nanny sleeping outside the Central Park Zoo with boy/girl twins in the stroller. I am no Cagney or Lacey- but it was clearly a nanny and she was clearly drop dead asleep. We sat down next to her on a bench for a few minutes so we could oooogle her stroller. No- actually, so M could ooogle her stroller and she was zonked out. The twins were asleep too. I'm sure she is a lovely person and I'm sure her nanny diaries are keeping her up at late....But isn't that dangerous and a bit wrong? Yikes.
Perhaps even more upsetting is that I just purchased on itunes my first Bon Jovi song ever. Yeah, it's got to be the first. I am sure the last.
2 comments:
Damn! That's scarey.As a parent I for sure would want to know about that. Those kids asleep or not are in danger from who knows while the nanny is incapacitated:(
You should have taken pics or video taped it.
It is a tough choice. My career too, as a lawyer, was just taking off when I chose to stay home. I was in my field, doing exactly what I always wanted to do, had just had a front page article in the NY Law Journal about a case I won, won a city bar award for my work...great stuff! In my case, employer wasn't flexible about hours. So the choice was clear. Take the leap..home now going on 7 years and I would never trade what I have for the world... my advise: SEe if the boss-man will give you what you want. Don't compromise. Shotzie P.S. know lots of people with great, loving, super caretakers for their kids. Something tells me you wouldn't compromise that either. there are great nannies out there you just need to find them...
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